lazy_stella

update status:

-single (and very happy :) )

-have complex partial seizures (had to go to hopkins to figure that one out...because salisbury dr. are incompetent)

-hippie for all hallows eve

-love margaritas :)

-love the movie 'hard candy'...insane. elephant woman by blonde redhead played at the end of that is just superb and perfect for the ending

-love my edgar :)

-managers at hoco (hollister company) were fired last wed. and no one will tell us WHY :(

-i hope my camry doesn't die!

-graduation steadily approaching... :)

-so is my birthday! the big 2-2. pfft.

this semester went semi-ok:

Global Environmental History : B
History of India, Part II : B
Greek History : C
PHEC (aka Gym) : B

gym teacher = no good. do not take mapp for gym. she sucks. she gave me a b because she didn't like me. i was there for class every day but 1. there were people who would just leave after the lecture part of class and not work out. i never did that because i wanted an a. ugh. she stinks.

i was pretty certain i'd get a b in greek history and an a in india...idk what happened there. i think i just stressed about global too much and didn't focus too much on the other 2. i had no worries about gym because, well, it's GYM.

whatever.

this fall is my last semester EVER...as an undergrad. who knows what i'll go onto next...master's in history? your mom? the world? idk but i do know i'll have a blast doing it. :)

now it's summer and i've got 2 jobs. one is at salisbury university, the awesome switchboard operator. and the other is at... *drum roll* Hollister in the mall. My title: model. basically, i'm a pretty security guard. while looking really fashionable in hollister apparel AND inconspicuous, those trying to steal will be caught by me and put off stealing with such one-liners as "would you like for me to put those sandals up by the counter while you continue to shop around?" or "i can hang that shirt in a fitting room while you continue to browse". my orientation was yesterday at 10am. we had to watch a dvd on stealing...i guess it's a big deal in retail? yeah, i know. just j/k. i still can't believe i got the job...like, it's funny. idk i just never thought it'd happen. but they're desperate and i need the dough so it works out. this is one of the funniest things i've ever done. i tell ppl i work there and i get the giggles.

i had another eeg. the results came back "abnormal"...such a vague word in this case. dr. nateson wants me to meet with him again but this time my mom and dad are going with me because my dad wants to talk to him and basically tell him that he's getting a second opinion from Johns Hopkins. hopefully we'll get some answers then...

this whole month of june i've been on call for jury duty. and i was actually chosen of the 80 or however many to be selected for the 12 (then there are 2 alternatives, in case someone cannot serve)! the case was about a man accused of robbing a wachovia bank in western md, somewhere. the judge asks the potential jurors questions as a group and if you answer yes, like if a family member or yourself were charged with a crime or felony and/or served then you were to go up to him and the attorneys and speak with them in private about the matter. that took a long time. then the judge asked if there was anyone who was or has a family member involved in a financial institution or the law (cop, sheriff, etc.) then they were to stand and tell who. me and about 10 others did NOT stand when that question was asked. everyone else did and they told the court their connection with one of the 2 or both in most cases.

i probably wasn't selected because of 1) my age (i was the youngest person there...the next one closest to my age was a woman who looked to be in her late 20s/early 30s) and 2) my lack in financial experience. i had thought about saying my dad was an accountant but idk if he's ever worked with banks as clients before. i don't really know much about my dad's clients.

but i wasn't chosen but i did physically appear in court so i'll get my $40 for showing up and they pay for parking AND 50 1/2 cents for ever mile from the court house if your home is 100 miles away or more. so that'll be NICE.

justin and i have moved in together. we've got 3 pets now: mr. bungles, our very beautiful yet moody iguana (i think it's because he's shedding). edgar, our rambunctous, boisterous tabby kitten. and jose cuervo, the hermit crab. i just bought him on a whim. never had a hermit before! kinda boring though. i guess technically we've got 4 pets because justin brought home a stray. he named him mr. nomad styles after kevin styles. it's funny if you know kevin and, uh, his "situation".

anywho...anything going on...oh! going to see radiohead aug. 12th. w00t!

no more jury duty after this month! w00t!

i think that's it...

so ever since middle school, i've had this list of CRAAAAAAZY things that i've always wanted to do. to name a few: get a tattoo, ride/own a motorcycle, get my ears pierced, dye my hair...you know, the basics.

well, i actually did one of those toda--tonight...

iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii....




GOT A TATTOO!







just kidding.




i actually dyed my hair. and i'm not hinting at any colors. just know that it's not blonde. i can't go back to my youthful Aryan look; i've accepted it. just 3 dollars of transform the dull, lifeless, trite, boring, sad excuse for hair colour. well, it wasn't any of those things to me. but i thought, why the hell not?

i re-type my schedule just so y'all can see it:

MWF Phec 106 Cross Training 8:20am-9:50am (Charisse Mapp)
MWF Hist 370 Greek History 11:00am-11:50am (Kevin Birch)
MW Hist 392 Global Environmental 3:00pm-4:15pm (Michael Lewis)
History

MW (work) 1-3pm F 1-5pm

TuTh Hist 343 History of India 9:30am-10:45am (Kevin Ackerson)
Part II
TuTh Hist 395 Material Culture in 11:00am-12:15pm (Jeanne Whitney)
American History

TuTh (work) 12:30pm-3:30pm


1.) Cross Training. my professor is the women's basketball coach here at su. as a required part of our grade, totalling 60 points, we have to go to 2 home games...one is Feb. 13th (wednesday) at 5:30pm and the next is Feb. 16th (saturday) at 2pm (both in maggs). anyone wanna join??? you know you want to...sometimes she's hard to hear but i don't think she'll be, like, a work-out nazi. i originally thought she would be, being a coach and all but she doesn't give off that vibe. pretty laid back, actually.

2.) Greek History. kevin birch is a scary kind of funny. ok, he, like a handful of history professors here, have extreme issues when it comes to plagiarism. of course, no professor likes it when students plagiarize or anything like that but...he is an all-or-nothing kind of professor. meaning, that when you get caught plagiarizing, he wants you expelled from all 13 colleges/universities in maryland, not expelled from su. and you can't eat in his class. and if you have "more than one absense, it may result in grade revision"...from syllabus. and already missed class today because i wasn't feeling so well. i felt sick during gym. luckily we didn't do anything today but i just felt sicky... :( weird.

3.) Global Environmental History. this class ought to be interesting...i'm actually kind of excited to go to it. the professor, michael lewis, seems really cool. first day of class, we had to list the top 10 countries with the greatest area, largest population, and largest wealth. harder than you'd think. i guessed mexico for greatest area as one...that is number 13 or 14 i think...someone guessed AFRICA...no one had the heart to tell him it was a continent. he listed all the names people threw out and then we voted on which stayed...obviously, not africa. i died a little inside when i heard that.

4.) History of India, part II. obviously, i couldn't get enough of dr. ackerson first semester. haha. NOT LIKE THAT...pervs. really great professor, really interesting class, really awesome.

5.) Material Culture in American History. this class sounds A LOT cooler than it appears. i'm considering dropping this class. waaaay too much work. she admitted she's ocd the first day. so that means she'll be very particular about her exams and other work. 2 exams. final is CUMULATIVE. went on and on about where she got her masters' and phd...she dated someone from the 'antiques roadshow' on mpt...the cool thing about it is that it's hands-on learning but there's a required 12-15pp paper, history major or not, and a presentation at the end of the semester. ugh. idk. maybe i'm just bitching too much. but i really didn't get any good vibes from her. i'm trying to find a class to switch into...but no luck so far


i ordered my books from amazon.com, because it's cheaper...but i'll have to wait longer. like, they won't be here until middle of next week, at least. i'm praying sooner...

i also signed up for the federal resume writing and how to get a federal job workshop. why not?

note to self: never fall asleep w/ wet hair...again. i look a sight today...

blake gunther
nick large
jeff pickle (those last 2 are in nicole's last lj posts; it made me laugh, hope you don't mind)

yesterday i went to the su bookstore, not to buy books, but to take pictures of the covers of the books so i can get them super-cheap from amazon.com.

i'm pretty sure i was being watched the whole time because for some reason, i felt guilty about it. almost like i was stealing. but i wasn't. and they've stolen hundreds from me and countless others over the years so i think it's fair. so shortly after the guilt trip, my paranoia subsided and i left the bookstore with my head held high, knowing i was going to save my dad hundreds on books.

last night he slept in the hospital to be observed for his sleep apnea. it's pretty bad...so bad, that it wakes him up, as well as my mom. on the nyc trip we took before christmas '07, i heard firsthand how bad it had gotten...omg. the only reason why i got any sleep was because of the mattress...it felt like i was sleeping on a cloud from heaven. mmmmm

so hopefully he'll be alright. it might have something to do with the fact that my dad drinks...a lot. according to justin's "counselors" at the drug classes, you are an alcoholic if you have more than five drinks a week... that's bull shit. that would make everyone an alcoholic. my immediate family...heather...joe...crystal...myself...that baby from indiana...(look it up on cnn.com)

chuck norris is pro-huckabee. perhaps he will be chosen as huckabee's secretary of defense.

so heath ledger is dead... :( why? so so young...and handsome...and a dad. as of right now the autopsy is 'inconclusive' and may take up to 2 weeks to determine cause of death...really? i don't think he killed himself. it doesn't make sense. he was probably tired from filming the batman movie and then another one scheduled to come out. maybe he was allergic? maybe he thought it'd be a good idea to catch up on his sleep and take more than the recommended amount...or maybe he had a history of heart problems...eventually we will know.

on a happier note, crystal made it back!! YAY!! i feel like i was the only one really worried about her. not about the creepy french dudes (she knows how to defend herself), but about the flight(s)...yayayayayayayayyayaya!

'cloverfield' is f*cking amazing! everyone should see it. seriously. i do have a few questions about it, though. but my main question is the name. what does it mean? did i miss something in the beginning? i just really want to understand the relevance of the name...sequel? pre-quel????

i love wyatt's "ex-girlfriend" christy (i don't know if they are still broken up or what...they still hang out/go out together to places...idk. stupid seniors.) but this pic of her and her friends that i saw on facebook scares me.




they all look exactly the same! fake blonde. fake tan. dark eyebrows. dark eyes. f-in' typical blondes...and the blonde is the SAME shade. **Christy is the one in the center, to the right...or 3rd in from the right. wow. unbelievable. and freaking CREEPY. blonde barbie clones..


--so last night, me and justin and our friends were hanging out at this place that they call "frog hollow". it's a ways off of dagsboro. and basically it's undeveloped land (woods) that is attached to a development-like street. some who were there last night have been going to it since they were 16 or so (now 19/20). it's just a nice place to hang out, and drink, etc. or not even drink. they build a fire. collect wood. listen to good music. have good fun.

-but last night, around midnight, all the fun came to a sudden, sad and semi-alarming end.

-as we're all sitting around the bonfire, some drinking, some smoking (normal and wacky-tobacky), i see a few flashlights shining towards us. i figured it was some more people we were expecting...to my surprise, and everyone else's, it was the police. i realized this when he said, "nobody move." in a very stern and police-like voice (everyone knows what i'm talking about). they rounded up people who had gone off to pee and others who were trying to leave (not because the cops were there but because they were going home).

-justin brought his couch that he and jon had found at a construction site. it wasn't dirty but it was missing back-cushions. those "smoking" were sitting on the couch and while the bowl was being passed, the girl who had it, tried to hide it in the couch. but one of the cops saw it and made them get up from the couch. they ripped the bottom of it out and found the bowl. no one claimed it. and they searched us. didn't find the weed. the guy who brought it, dan, put it between his buttcheeks (it was in a baggy) while the cops were searching others.

-they accused us of trespassing on private property. but those ppl who had been going out there for 3-4 years, would've never have gone out there, if there were private property or no trespassing signs out there. they and all of us there respect the woods and kept it tidy. there was even a trashcan out there for the beer and food wrappers...

-but lucky us, us being 21, like myself, were not charged with contributing to minors. because those who were underage did not even have anything. this one guy kept kissing the cops' butts and trying to talk over one of the cops. he eventually gave up. but still...after everything was all said and done, determining the sober drivers, searching ppl and coats, blankets, couch, etc. he still kept it up.

-the girl who admitted she hid the bowl, was forced to litter. like, they made her throw it in the woods, instead of her breaking it or filling out paperwork for it. we figured it was because it was a sunday night and they thought we seemed descent enough and we were keeping the place tidy.

-justin was worried he was going to jail because he's on probation and the minors being there. but the cops were cool. i didn't even have my license on me. why would i need it out in the woods? or money, for that matter.

-so after all that, we left and re-grouped at justin's. dan smoked a celebratory bowl for not getting caught. lucky bastard. it was his bowl, too, that was thrown in the woods. but seriously, if i was almost busted for possession, the first thing that i'd want to do would be...hmmm...NOT SMOKE ANYMORE WEED... but hey, that's just me. it was funny because i had just opened a beer and took a sip when the cops got there. i wouldn't've gotten into trouble but it was still funny.

--so my dad's not going to pay for me to get my master's if i don't go to su. it's understandable but i don't think he'll even help out. w/e. it's not like he has to pay for wyatt's education anymore. that'll all be taken care of, tuition-wise, by may or june of this year. only thing he'll have to worry about is wyatt paying for brand-new books...probably won't even look at used ones because he's gotta have the best.

--crystal is gone to france :( but i am very happy for her. she will have a blast! :) i know it. you go girl!

--"walk hard" is f*ckin' hilarious! everyone needs to see this movie. it's like a spoof on all of the rock 'n' roll legends' rise to fame and during and after. if you don't or didn't like it or see the humor in it, then you do not deserve to live.

-just like the wigger guy at market street a few nights' ago. justin's friend's dad, wes davis, played a beatles' song (hard day's night) and this dude yells out "beatles suck!" justin and jeff weren't going to stand for it so they talked to the guy and asked him why he didn't like the beatles. his reason: they started the boy band craze. i'm NOT joking. justin told him flat out, that was dumbest and most untrue reason for not liking the beatles. they are the reason why you have the music you listen to. because they are one of most influential bands of all time, they are one of the reasons rap is even exists (notice, i said one...)

fucking idiots...

so apparently short-legged women, like myself, are at an increased risk for liver disease...

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/22301891/


wtf.


i'm tired. back at work. it's only 9.26am and i want to strangle myself with the phone cord. there have been so many calls today...the most i've ever had in one day. ever. just in the past hour and a half, more than i've ever had in a 9-hour day. wtf. no joke, all 6 lines were lit up at once today. jessica, if you're reading this, have fun!


so my family and i had our summer vacation in nyc, the thurs-sun before christmas. it was awesome. definitely wouldn't mind doing that again but i would NEVER live there...people are crazy if they want to. too much hustle-and-bustle for this rural girl...but there is sooo much to see and do. we didn't even get a taste of nyc, in my opinion.

remember how i said i lost my camera "last year" (ha. ha.) well i found it in my backpack. it had definitely seen better days. to sum it up: i found it. took some pics. then it froze and wouldn't work the rest of the trip. then i got it to work on our last night in nyc. then it broke again (it had been acting up prior to me "losing" it). i got frustrated and threw it on the bed. then i forget to pack it with my things. nyc hilton claims "no one found". bullshit. one of the maids sold it for crack. but it didn't work so the bitch got screweD! w00t. that's my ending and i'm sticking to it.


i'm pretty sure my car is falling apart now. or maybe it just needs a complete tune-up, which i cannot give it because i am broke. the heat comes out cool. i'm always running the air-conditioning to defrost my windshield (the heat fogs it up, what heat comes out). my leather has ripped on my seat. i hate NEEDING money. i hate money. i really do. i'm going to live somewhere where i can ride my bike everywhere and i can make my own clothes or buy them super-cheap. hippie commune sounds good. or iceland.


my new years' resolutions:

-be healthy.
-save money.
-have good clean fun, with good, clean people.
-read more.
-take better care of my electronical equipment...
-do well in school!!!
-start playing my flute again...i miss my baby!
-get back into listening to music, as well. ( 2007 was not a 'musical' year for me. focus on school and a boy and friends and fun... :) )

so i got back my microeconomics test i took not last thursday (because that was thanksgiving..) but the thursday before that today...

wow.

i studied not only the night before but a few days before that exam. just a little each day.
i read, re-read, re-re-read all those chapters and took my own notes on every chapter.
and i read the chapters again to make sure i didn't miss anything in the notes i took on my own.

and what grade do i receive for all of this?

i haven't done this badly since freshman year...of high school.



a WHOPPING 55%.

and after i told my dad i wanted to minor in economics...doesn't look like THAT'S going to happen...

so much for grad school...what am i going to do? maybe another minor? class over winter break? too late to withdrawl from class...how do i explain a 'd' to my dad? "sorry, dad, i guess i'm just too fucking stupid. i was just joking about that whole minor thing anyway...seemed like a good idea at the time, you know, when i thought i was smart..."

one of the short answer problems that i actually got right, he took off 3 points for, out of 8, because i didn't have 2 things labeled on a graph. but everything else was right. wtf.

you'd think someone who's only been teaching a year would be fairly reasonable when it comes to grading...

i was really upset at first but now i'm just fucking pissed. it doesn't make any sense either because i do really well on the quizzes. a couple of them i didn't even study for and i got 7/8 or 8/9...all of the quizzes are like that. i felt like i did fairly well on this test. not an "a" but at least a "b". and i did everything i could think of to pass this test. i thought i was going to get an "a" because of how much time/work/effort i put into this. i was so motivated. i mean, i got a 64% on the first exam so that made me want to do better even more. failing to me is not an option. i don't have that luxury. fucking asshole.

i've been trying so damn hard to get my gpa (cumulative) up to a 3.0. i'm so tired of fucking bullshit.

i'm going to talk to him whenever his office hours are because this don't fly. my dad is paying too much money for me to get a good education and i'm not going to have his money go down the tube b/c i've got a professor who sucks.

and i'm tired of talking about this shit. so anyway...


i've got a make-up exam on reading day. 8.30am. saturday. :( oh well. i missed it on purpose because i had another exam that day and i did bad on both when i had tests in those same 2 classes on the same day. well, not bad, but it could've been better. a "b" is good but it could've been an "a".


my head hurts. probably from all this ranting.

maybe i'll go to the mall and shop alittle. will shopping take away the pain of being a failure? highly doubt it.

i need to start looking for another job...i've said that already but now i need to and i really want to.

lots of school...lots of work...lots of fun

tomorrow is my 21st birthday. i'm excited and indifferent at the same time. it's my last "important" birthday but i don't want to go out w/ a bang. i want to remember it, at least. and i want those i really care about, my closest friends, to all be there. even my lover...but i can't always get what i want :( oh well.

any good places to go out to? i always thought the bottle factory was seedy...i've never heard good things about it. but on wednesdays there is an open bar and it's only 5 bucks to get in and drinks are $2. idk. i don't really want to go there though. but if anyone knows of a reasonably priced bar that isn't seedy then you should let me know...

this is the 2nd time i've lost a cell phone. what. the. fuck. this time it doesn't even make sense...i've got my dad's friend's old cell phone. it's hard to push the keys when i'm dialing/texting but i'm not going to complain. it's better than no phone at all. and it has a camera.

so i told my parents what i wanted for my birthday and/or christmas: a new cd player for my car and/or money. cd players are a little over a hundred and free to install (my bro got it done at circuit city)...idk if it'll happen or not.

later today, i found out from my brother that he's getting a LAPTOP for his graduation. again. what. the. fuck. i didn't get anything like that. i didn't even ask for anything for my graduation because i didn't (and don't) expect to get anything for a graduation...well, maybe money, which i did get...but not something that costs a couple thousand...i guess i need to become a whiny brat like wyatt...teach me your ways, oh spoiled one! no, not really. but seriously, what the hell?! i'm the good one. when will i be rewarded?

i know i'm not spoiled but i don't think it's fair that my brother gets stuff like that and i don't. emphasis on the fairness...

so i had 2 exams on monday. one for my 9am and the second for my 10am. the night before, i studied for the 9am...and only that one. i decided that i was tired of taking 2 exams in one day and doing not great on either of them. since i can make up the exam for my 10am one on reading day, i decided to not go to it. and it was a good thing i did. i got a 91 on that exam, first 'a' all semester b/c my professors like to schedule their exams on the same day and it really messes w/ my head. ethically, it was wrong. i know. but i don't feel guilty about it at all because of the results. is that wrong, not feeling guilty?

well, whatever. no use crying over spilled milk.

my head hurts. today was a long day.

i deleted the last entry because, well, my "creative" ideas were not really, uh, that great...

that's ok.

3 hours and counting... :)

ppl should check out my vid on my myspace page. i couldn't put the one i wanted b/c it wasn't "viewable"...w/e.

i can't wait for "tashaween"!! weeeeee!!

next week, i've got 3 tests...i'm not sure when one of them is but it'll more than likely be monday. ugh. i need to read for all of them. i've gotten kind of lazy with that...

jesse is returning to the 'bury in december! according to the "betty" (isn't that an "option" when you order like a combo-thing in gull's nest???). i'm happy for him.

*hunts madly in her closet for her beatles' albums*

*wishes she had the white album* :(

*wishes she wasn't cheap*

doesn't jim sturgess (from "across the universe") look like a younger paul mccartney, except instead of the baby blue eyes he has the dark chocolate brown eyes...?? yes!!







huh??? maybe...ok, so not the best pictures but you can get an idea...